"Gradually, then suddenly."

In The Sun Also Rises Mike Campbell is asked how he fell into bankruptcy. He answers with three words, "Gradually, then suddenly."

Is this not how we all fall? No matter our weakness, it seems we slip and slide slowly; and then, it is a free fall.

At least that is how I feel about this relapse- and every relapse for that matter. It was a slow slide: skipping exchanges, a purge here and there, a little less of a serving, a missed meal. Then one day I woke up and it was gone. My grasp on sanity and health: gone. It happened all at once, but gradually too. Little by little I fell rapidly.