There is a man, full of strength and grace. Who stole my heart in the gentlest way. I have never felt such love. I have never found such peace in someone's arms. When he looks at me, I almost feel complete. With his hand in mine, my brokenness fades away and I am as beautiful as he says I am. For once, I feel content.
I want to push away. I want to find something wrong with it all. I want to say I am not worthy and quietly slip into the empty spaces where relationships cannot exist. I want him to tell I am too much or not enough. I want him to find someone else, as wonderful as he is.
Then again, it breaks my heart to think about being without him. If you take salt away from food, the food doesn't change, but the whole experience of eating does. In the same way, he has become the salt in my life. Take him away and the sky is a different color blue , the air is thicker, the water is darker.
Maybe that is what really scares me. Maybe, that is why I have been so needy and eager for reassurance: He has changed my world. I have let him in deeper than anyone and if he leaves, what will be left of my already broken soul?
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